i haven't felt fine since 1999

🎶 I haven't felt fine, since 1999
I haven't been alright for 20 years
I haven't felt fine, since 1999
I haven't been okay since I was 5

I'm going through a lot right now
I'm sick of other people's nostalgia
I don't give a fuck about cartoons

some things get harder the older you get
I didn't level up the right way
don't fucking tell me that it gets better
some things get harder the older you get
I didn't level up the right way
don't fucking tell me that it gets better

I don't want to eat, I know it won't help
I don't want to fuck, maybe just myself
I don't want to live, just die as myself
I don't want to eat, I know it won't help
I don't want to fuck, maybe just myself
I don't want to live, just die as myself

I hate feeling my body, my skin makes me feel destructive
if I lost 5kg, people would care if I was killed
I'm very very hungry, but it's worth it worth it worth it

it would take the pressure off to outsource my suicide
it would be better if it wasn't my fault
remember me as whatever you wanted me to be

I haven't felt fine, since 1999
I haven't been alright for 20 years
I haven't felt fine, since 1999
I haven't been okay since I was 5

I haven't felt fine, since 1999
I'd give up dopamine, for a sense of peace and ease
I'd give up dopamine 🎶