Jared.

I was 21 You were 19. I was incredibly attracted to you and I thought about you all the time. When you kissed me on ... New Year's 2015 it was magical; the balloons and streamers falling all around us, the music, the people cheering. It might have been my forehead or cheek first. We wern't just friends after that. The other couple from church that we hung out with thought it was adorable.

We started dating, and you told me that you loved me right away, at the end of a phone call. I knew from the beginning that you were on the spectrum When I met your parents, I was expecting them to pull me aside and tell me. I should have talked to you about it; tried to connect to and understand your mind.

But I knew we weren't going to see a year. I wanted what I wanted as soon as I saw you.